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« IC.USERNAME » TEXT ✧ AUDIO ✧ VIDEO ✧ ACTION Marianna "Monts" Medina ✦ Original Character
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[nerine]

Well...

[ There is A Lot going on when it comes to her particular headspace, but Monts wants to simplify it for the sake of casual conversation. ]

I'm all about friendly flirting just for fun, but I haven't put much thought into pursuing a serious relationship back home. Here it's like...

[ Monts takes a big sip of her drink to finish it off before continuing. ]

Maybe I don't trust anyone enough here; on a surface level maybe. There are some people who are perfectly fine holding my hand for Synchrony.

[ Like Hua Cheng and Cloud was a grumpy albeit willing participant. ]

Remember how I don't feel pain? Trusting someone with touch kind of hits different for me in a way.

[eights_and_aces]

[The girl listened with half lidded eyes, and nodding a bit in understanding at some of it. After all it wasn't too terribly different from her own struggles with the entire bit. Mulling it over before answering.]

Well trust does help I think, but I hadn't looked at it that way to be honest. l definitely was more opposed to the, ah...more intimate way of getting the Synch because of my situation back home. [A pause, giving a bit of a sigh. There was a lot of to it.] So there is something to being in the right headspace for it.

I guess this might sound like a personal question, but that problem trusting people with touch because you wouldn't be able to tell the difference between pain and...well good touches? [Wrinkling her nose at the way it sounded when it came out of her mouth.]

[nerine]

Oh, no, it's quite easy to tell even if I can't feel it. It's a little disturbing, but it's not like I'll still have googly eyes for someone after they've broken my arm or something. I don't appreciate the few seconds or minutes where I can't move you know.

And I have a sense of touch and taste so I can distinguish between textures, warm and cold, etcetera. Just can't tell if something is damaging me.

[ Monts leans back in her seat trying to think of another way to explain it. ]

... It's more akin to the fact that I depend on what emotions I have at the moment which probably makes me more vulnerable. More in my head so to speak.

[eights_and_aces]

Huh. [Leaning back and really thinking now.]

That does make sense. From what I've experienced it is a sharing of emotions, even for the light stuff, so it isn't just you. [Tapping her chin as an idea did come to her.] And I guess it wouldn't have to be just 'good' emotions either.

[nerine]

Another way to put it is... [ Monts pauses as if what she wants to share sounds like too much. But she can get past it at this moment. Anna's been nothing, but a good listener since they've first met. ]

I might not know what it's like to be in physical pain, but then all I'm familiar with is getting my feelings hurt.

[eights_and_aces]

That does help. [Regarding the other woman closely.] I don't see an easy answer though, besides getting to know more people and knowing who you can trust and Synching with them. That would work for the smaller stuff.

Plus, it didn't seem that...'deep'? to me. Like sharing a smile over a joke or something, so I wouldn't think it would be that risky.

[One corner of her lip raised, looking rather bemused.]
Now the bigger stuff, that is going to be harder. I'm not really sure how to guard on that one, besides feeling comfortable just normally with the other person.

[Strumming the fingers of her other hand as she talked, trying to work it out.]

[nerine]

And probably learning how to be a little more flexible. I feel like I'm not usually like this, but then again I haven't pursued a relationship even when I was back home.

[ Hmmmmm... ]

Well enough about me. Back to you and I'm gonna be cheeky about it this time. Anyone you've met besides that someone at the bath house that you like enough?

[eights_and_aces]

[Anna was going to ask another question, but Monts got cheeky.]

Well...yes.

[She'd let Monts stew on that answer for just a bit, waiting until it looked like the other woman was about to object to being left hanging like that. The mutants eyes narrowed and she got that look in her eye.]

I'm sure you want details, but I've got to protect the innocent and all Monts. [Holding up one hand, and raised a finger for each.]
The one in the bath. Him for certain.
A woman I met when I first got here. She's very pretty, and very down to earth.
Another man I met a bit ago. I'm not sure if he would be game, and he is different from the other so it would be a little odd.
And this other girl I met. She's cute too, has a bit of a good trouble streak in her I think. But I don't know if she's open to something. But I do like her no matter what.

So that is [Counting her fingers dramatically.] Four I have Synced with in some way and wouldn't mind a bit if were a bit more.

[nerine]

[ Mons... Innocent...

Well, she's not going to try to be a Cool Girl, it's all in good fun. She listens to Anna's descriptions of the various people she's met and may or may not have Synched with. ]

Sounds like you've met a good variety of people so far. And had fun too, so good for you.

[ Thinking back on this month... Hmmmmmmmm. ]

Looking back the past few weeks, I've realized I'm fairly... Picky. Lotta good looking people for sure though.

[eights_and_aces]

I said Synched with, not had sex with. [She said, giving a wink.] That is still a big fat zero.

[Arching a brow.]

Picky isn't bad, it is good, though all bullshit aside are you getting enough to keep from the effects of not Synching? [If she did sound concerned, it was because she is. That possibility and conversations with a few made her rethink her approach to the process.]

[nerine]

Hua Cheng helps out with that. It's just handholding. Lewd, I know.

[ She holds up her hands and wiggles her fingers to punctuate the joke. ]

But I know I shouldn't depend on him all the time.

[eights_and_aces]

Scandalous. The next thing that you know you might be cuddling.

[Giving a bit of a smile when Monts waggled her fingers.]

Probably not. I think I get it. What you were asking about earlier, it make sense now. All I know is how that was described to me sounds really, really bad. Feeling nothing at all is worse than possibly being hurt. [Anna spoke softly and with a bit of understanding in her voice. It was a different sort of choice that she had to make, but that didn't mean she didn't understand Monts' either.

The girl gave a smile, giving her friend a moment or two to think.]

Look, if you need to or even if you just want to, you can call me, ok? [Her hazel eyes on Monts to drive home the offer.] And I promise to close my eyes and look the other way so it isn't lewd. Deal?

[nerine]

Mm. Yeah, I kind of struggled to realize that. My boss had to point it out to me and I felt like an idiot for never getting it... Things that hurt your heart don't really heal, you just move on from it one way or another.

[ Iona had a way of pointing out the obvious that Monts was blind to.

She blinks at Anna's offer, pleasantly surprised. ]

Oh! That's very kind of you.

[ It occurs to Monts that if she wants to at least get by, asking people to hold hands wouldn't be the worst thing in the world. They're all bound by the system of Synchrony and Manna for the foreseeable future anyway. ]

I'll be sure to hit you up then for not-lewd handholding.

[eights_and_aces]

Join the club, I feel like an idiot a lot more than I would like lately. [Giving a half roll of her eyes and a slight shrug.] Hell, I'm starting to think it is an occupational hazard of being here.

[A light laugh at the expression that she read on the other woman's face.]

Don't act all surprised. I like you, you're fun to talk to and I'd think it would be horrible if you ended up messed up 'cause you weren't able to take care of what you need to. So not lewd, lewd, lewd questioning...whatever you need. As long as you are staying, well healthy I guess would be the best way to put it.

[Anna actually hadn't ever thought of it like that until she voiced it that way. And really it seemed a perfect way to describe it, instead as some existential crisis. Gesturing to their empty glasses.]

Now you were telling me about this cocktail of yours, I want to try one.

[nerine]

Ha. Thanks, Anna.

[ Usually one wouldn't have to say it, but Anna's honesty was a bit refreshing. It wasn't overly blunt or in your face like some people she knew, but it was clear and present. ]

Alright, two Negroni's it is. I hope it's something that they know how to make here then.

[ Time to flag down a waiter so they can get those drinks which Monts does for the both of them. They're in luck! Two humble glasses of the drin are soon served to them and Monts nods approvingly at the orange peel garnish. ]

Now, this is nice. It doesn't look like much, but it's got a good deep flavor. I prefer taking my time with my drinks and this is one of them that's perfect for that.

[eights_and_aces]

Gives a whole new meaning to the phrase 'what are friends for?' doesn't it.

[Her words gave her some cover on how she felt about it. Not that she had any qualms with Syncing with Monts in whatever capacity, more the thought of the woman, or any of her other friends she had made here, being in that kind of situation.]

[Anna gave a lazy smile and listened in as her friend explained the drink and gave it a look over when they arrived.]

It looks high class, especially with the orange peel. [Giving Monts a playful glance. Raising the glass and taking a sniff, then a sip.] Not bad, not bad at all. Where did you pick this one up?

[nerine]

[ Monts raises her glass in return and takes a sip. She enjoys the aroma and bitterness, and then the sweet smooth finish at the end. ]

Oh, you know. It's not as if I haven't hit up a bar back home and if there were drinks available on a menu, you bet I was gonna try it.

[eights_and_aces]

We must go to different sorts of bars then. [It certainly was different, not bad, and definitely something that needed to be sipped. Leaning back into her chair.] I feel like we should be smoking cigars and discussing something shady.

[nerine]

Well, you can find Negronis at some higher-end restaurants, not just bars where old guys hang out with cigars. But it really does give that impression, doesn't it?

[eights_and_aces]

Might explain why I haven't run into it before then. [Taking another small sip, trying to mimic Morts' handling of the drink.]

Yea it does. I like it though. [A soft chuckle.] I guess this is one of those things that I'd probable never try, or get a chance to, if I didn't get brought here. Thanks Monts.